In Search

If we look at most of the people around, they are doing the same kind of thing everyday. Yet few people have a different charm. They are always in search of doing something different. They are the few who excel. If we choose the correct word for them then they are very passionate. I think they are at the place of there choice and they are fit for the work they are into. Most of them were bound to be doing only this as compared to others who are just following the mass. When I think about myself, I am still confused as to what is that I would have taken up as a profession would have given me more satisfaction then what I am currently into. But I am not able to find the answer. when I was in school, I wanted to be an architect. I used to admire the way building plans were made and implemented. When I was in college I wanted to be a RJ, I had even gone to Akashvani kendra to give inerview but was not selected. Actually was not aware of the process and realized that going for any exam without awareness can never give results. Only luck cannot make you shahrukh khan or bill gates or sachin tendulkar. It is there knowledge which makes them what they are today. Yeah but that was my dream. Then I also wanted to be an editor of magazine or news paper at one point in time. I used to like that job. I still love all these jobs and I also love the job I am into. But still not able to find out what is that I am passionate about most and which I can convert to my profession. Actually I am never fussy about anything I do that is the reason I am not able to find the answer. May be someday I will be able to find answer to this question.

I just don't want my life to end like this. I want to do something different and outstanding. That doesn't mean that I want to be famous but I want to be happy within and satisfied just to find out the way of expressing myself the best. I don't want to end up doing the same thing which 10s and thousands of others are also doing. if I can put a word for this it should be something innovative. Something that represents me as a person. I am in search of that and hope to find it soon.

Friends

If I think of instances in past, I realize how my life has changed so much. Infact all of us, who were together for whole day in our college, have now changed. How much fun it used to be, those lectures, practicals, movies, trips. Even we used to study (for namesake) together. Such a bonding we had that even on sundays we used to meet somehow. If we could not, we would call up each other. Friends is all I could think of when I think of my school and college life. My mother used to tell me how many friends you have, she used to be very tired on my birthdays when my friends used to come to my place to wish me and she had to prepare something for all of them. I still remember she used to tell me that on your birthday's you do not have time for us and its only your friends. Even now when I meet any of them or talk to them (once in a while), I feel as if I am still 17 year old. As if life is still same. Some of my friends are doing great in there job, some have flourished business of there own. Almost all married, some have kids (1 or 2 or 3 as well) :) All of them are well settled. Leave alone guys, even girls who only dreamt of being housewives (as they had there dream person with them in college :))are doing something and not following the traditional housewife role which there mother's or older generation did. So I was saying, when I meet them its still the same magic that we share. Even after not talking for months, when we meet and talk, it never happens that we do not have words. We always share the same feelings. I really feel blessed and happy to have not 1 or 2 such friends but many such friends through out from school to my recent job. I share special relationship with everyone but still the old is gold and the friends from school and college bring out that bubbly and cheerful person out of me, unknowingly.